As the title states, it is now mid-June and I am summer showless. I'm in a panic. I haven't NOT been in a summer show since I was probably thirteen. I feel lost and fidgety. It's worse because, as you know if you've been reading my blog, I've tried out for about ten shows this summer (and got one, then had to give it up). I'll pretty much take any show at this point.

I got really excited yesterday because i got an e-mail from a theatre I've done shows at for the past two years, saying what their summer shows would be- the last two were Annie and Bye Bye Birdie- ahhhh! I have wanted to be in Annie since I was eight- I will seriously take any role to be in that musical. And BBB is just fun. I replied to the person asking if the shows had been cast already. I got the answer this morning that the first two have been, but BBB might not be fully cast yet. She suggested I call the theatre's producer to get the full story.

I have major phone-phobia. I loathe calling people and will do pretty much anything to avoid it- I'll go over to their house before I call them. So it really means something that I called the producer as soon as I got her number. I got off the phone with her a few minutes ago and she made me feel like absolute crap.

This theatre, if you do not do each and every show, will retaliate. I have done almost all of the shows, but I've missed the spring show two years ago and this spring show. I missed both because I was already in a show. This year, it was my dance recital. So when the producer picked up the phone, I said who it was. Normally, she's very friendly and happy to hear from me. But I was not in this spring's show and she was cold from the start. I kept my tone bright though. "I was just wondering if you were still casting the summer shows?" Her tone didn't change. "No. We didnt' call you because it seemed you thought we fell off the face of the earth. You didn't even come to see Into the Woods." Her tone suggested I had committed a small crime. This made me really mad because, no, I didn't coem to see the show- I was a tad busy. and I always go to see the litle kids' shows, which I definitely don't have to do. I told her that I had my dance show. "On Sunday afternoon?" "Yes," I answered. "We had a matinee." I would have totally gone to see the stupid show if I could- most of my friends were in it!

So the main thing was that, since I wasn't in the show or the audience since January, they decided to get back at me by not inviting me to audition for their summer shows (they don't advertise them). I am really upset because I love both of those shows and have the time to do them this summer- and I am furious that she was able to make me feel like absolute crap. I didn't do anything wrong, but I still feel bad.

Whatever.

Two days ago, I went to an open call for extras for a film that's happening near me called Another Harvest Moon. Though I can't really put extra-ing on my resume, I think it would be fun and I love to be on the set. I don't think I was chosen, though, because today's the last day they said they'd call. They did see abuot two hundred people, though, maybe more, and they needed mostly senior citizens, which I most definitely am not.

I need something to do with myself this summer.. a job, or a show, or some kind of assignment. And I'm not talkig about Economics.