I can't decide if i should be happy or sad... I've chosen to be happ because what happened last night led to me getting some oddly good news...
So I went to see my one friend in Dark of the Moon (she was playing Barbara Allen) and when I went to get my ticket, the ticket lady was like, "You look really familiar- have yoou done something here before?" "I auditioned for Brighton Beach Memoirs," I answered. I don't know if I ever wrote about that auditon on here... probably not, since i was in the midst of State Fair. But when I ried out for BBM, there was callback fter callback (over the period of 2 nights) for the role of Nora until it came down to me and another girl. I didn't end up getting the role and I was really upset, because I pretty much AM Nora... it was like getting turned down to play myself! Anyway, the lady was like, "Oh, thats's right! Are you coming out for Biloxi Blues? There's a part for your age." She told me auditions were Monday and Tuesday. I knew I couldn't go Monday, 'cause of dance, and I thought I had Secret School yesterday. But when I checked, it was a set day, so I went to the audition last night.
They were really happy to see me, which was nice, and though I had planned to use my usual comedic monologue, which I'm good at, I nixed the idea when all three o the CDs remembered me. I chose one they provided, about a first-time skier's adventures. It was really funny. I was the second girl to go, and though I know I spoke really fast during the monologue, they laughed a lot, especially when my character was talking about going into the "snow plow" or "pizza wedge" position, and I very deliberately placed my feet into the position. They asked me about my schedule, which I knew would be a problem- I absolutely can't miss any more dance, which means missing 4 performances (I knew my chances were shot at that). They also aske me about my Law and Order episode. After that, they asked me to stick aroud and read. I was excitede because, even though the girl I was trying out for only has two scenes, they are two awesome ones!
They read the boys before the girls, and did three rounds of the guys' scene. Finally, they called me and a boy I knew into the room to read a scene together. I was happy with this because I knew that the guy would make me look good (and he's also the current male lead, which never hurts). The scene, which took place at a 1940's dance, went really well. They stopped us and gave us direction- they wanted me to be "sweeter". It felt really good and I was happy with how I did it.
I knew I wouldn't get the part because of my schedule, but I was still nervous when I heard that they were announcing the cast that night. The guys had it easy- all of them would get a part, no matter what. But us girls had a harder time- there were seven of us going for one role. There was a funny moment between us all chewing our fingernails off- one girl's boyfriend came in and had to go to te bathroom. There are two bathrooms in the building- one in the room where they were conferring, and one where we were sitting. He headed toward the closed "casting room" doors, and all the auditionees shouted, "NOOO!"
Finally, they came out and said that they only were able to cast one girl part (there are two, but one was older than all of us were). The lady was standing right next to me, holding the written cast list, and since I was sitting, I could see through it and read backwards. Next to Daisy's name were three names- one that was scratched out, the girl who was cast, and another that was scratched out. I'm pretty sure that mine was the first scratched out one- it looked short enough and started with the same letter. The girl who got the part deserves it- I just saw her perform in DOtM. But i do wish I could have been cast, despite my schedule.
As I was getting ready to go, the CD lady came over and was like, "Thank you so much for coming, I was glad to see you. I'm sorry we couldn't give you the part, but you're schedule is really full." "I know," I said. "That's generally my downfall." And then she said, "Yeah... I think that was the problem over the summer, too..." Which means that they really wanted me for Nora!!!! And that they also wanted me for Daisy!!!
Of course, it is bittersweet, because, even if they wanted me more than they'd ever wanted anybody else, I still didn't get to play those roles. But it is a self-esteem booster to know that someone really wants you for a role. I feel more confident in my ability now, which I've been doubting lately. Hopefully I can keep that confidence up during SS tonight!
Anyway, the lady was like, "Oh, thats's right! Are you coming out for Biloxi Blues? There's a part for your age." She told me auditions were Monday and Tuesday. I knew I couldn't go Monday, 'cause of dance, and I thought I had Secret School yesterday. But when I checked, it was a set day, so I went to the audition last night.
