| I really don't know what to do...
I had my second college audition yesterday. The audition went all right, but I only gotot do half od my monologue, and the interview was TERRIBLE. The worst part is, I don't even know what I did wrong- the interviewers were just so cold to me. I might think I'm just being super-sensitive, but I'm usually the one who likes people who others think are too tough or mean. And they were just... cold (while everyone else was like, "Oh, they're sooo nice.") So I blew that, but I was still waiting for my letter from University of the Arts.
When I got home at midnight, it was on the table. It was extremely skinny.
I opened it.
I didn't get in.
This is IT. That's the only college I wanted to go to. I only applied to the others so I'd have safety schools and to make my parents happy. But DeSales, which was yesterday's audition, went horribly, and I'm positive I didn't get in- especially since I got such a great feeling from my UArts audition. I passionately do not want to go to any of the other places I applied- like, I really really don't want to go there.
The worst aprt about this isn't really that I didn't get in- it's that I have to tell EVERYONE. My entire theatre school class knew I was trying out, they know it's my top college... and now I have to tell them that I didn't get in. My teachers know, my friends know... and my friends are all getting into their top colleges. I am so humiliated... nd I have a performance on Wednesday, and I don't have any confidence at all. |