Hooray, it's November, my favorite month! I can't wait for Thanksgiving, it's going to be so much tun!

Well, I am really glad that October is over. Odd Couple went well- great audiences both nights, and a bunch of people I knew came- but there were some festivities afterwards that went a bit awry. I wasn't there when they did, but the repercussions of that party lasted for about a week and a half and affected a lot of people. It didn't help that somehow, people's parents found out what happened (or at least, partially), and though I wasn't the youngest there, I was the most innocent and so the finger of shame was pointed at me for reporting what went on. However, i did not, so there was huge mix up.

BUT ANYWAY. It's November and all that is over.

I know some of you read about my Tommy mix up, and I ended up choosing assistant director. They offered me ensemble as well, so I took it. I had my first rehearsal this past Wednesday, and I was really not liking the vibe I was getting. It reminded me too much of Cabaret, and I was seriously toying with the idea of dropping out. Dropping out is not something I condone, but it was a mixture of things, from being forgotten for the fourth time this production to it seeming like I wasn't going to be doing much directing after all, that was making me consider it. However, I've since talked to the producer and have been convinced to stay on. Our director is getting surgery in December, so hopefully I'll be given a lot to do then.

My mom and I had a pretty big argument about acting, or rather, how many shows I'm doing. I've been doing two or three shows at once for awhile now, and she is adamant that it is affecting other parts of my life. I really don't think so- my grades are good; I have A's in my two AP classes, and my math grade is never going to go up anyway (I'm passing, though!) And I keep myself very calm about show at home. If I ever stress about them, it's outside of the house so my parents won't know. But I really don't get too stressed about them until show time rolls around. So at the end of the argument, she told me that I could not do anymore Murder Mysteries. This made me really mad because out of the five or six I've been offered, I could only do two, for various reasons. They are a lot of fun, I love doing them, and I get paid. Finally, she said that I could not do any during school hours (the last one I did, I missed CASA) ad none at all until they paid me. This is a better arrangement, but I like doing them whenever I can, and I think this is really going to limit me. I do, however, understand why she doesn't want me to miss CASA- they are paying for it, after all. So we'll see how that goes.

Unfortunately for my parents, heated discussions like that make me want to act more, so that day I went on an audition search and found a ton of auditions I want to go on. I foudn one for The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, and I am desperate to play Susan, but they don't advetise auditions for those shows. I'm trying to wheedle my way in using my limited connections at that theatre, but I haven't gotten an answer yet. Any ideas? There's a cool one coming up, The Secret School, based on Avi's book, but it's at a theatre that mostly caters to homeschooled kids (this is the same place I tried out for Ramona Quimby). There are also audition for Twelfth Night and The Robber Bridegroom coming up in December. I'm a little young for both, but I'm going out for it anyway.

There's one this month for Dark of the Moon... the play seems a little risque for my taste... I'm still trying to decide whether to try out for it or not.

I feel a bit weird about this year, mostly in a good way. I'm constantly doing shows, which is great, and a lot to handle. I just want to keep doing more and more, and i wish there were more hours in the day. I also wish I could just tell people I want to be an actress without them giving me that amused look they always do. I should not feel embarrassed about my career choice. I mean, I absolutely am committed to it, but I don't want to feel like I have to hide it. Does anyone else ever feel this way?

Cave Dwellers closes tonight. Our musical is Cats. I'm not very happy about this, but I'm going for Grizabella, a)because I like Memory (and can sing it waaay better than I used to; my range has stretched since two years ago) and b) because she's the only non-dancing femal cat, and I'm not a very good dancer. I didn't realise how many female parts were in it, so that's good. I think my parents are going to try to talk me out of it should I be offered a part, but the beauty of school productions is that most of the rehearsals end at five, leaving me just enough time to go home, grab dinner, and drive to another rehearsal. I love having a schedule like this- it makes me really happy (I don't think my parents get this, that it makes me happy to be busy). Auditions are in a week and a half.

I'm working on my college applications today- I really really want to get into UArts. I am so happy that my SAT scores are up to par- I was really worried about my math section. I love UArts, and it's also kind of associated with CASA, as a lot of our students go there. But the college application process is starting today, and I find it all rather depressing.