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written by Jessica, October 06, 2008

oh, my!!! does your brother live near by or is he with your parents? do you think you can stay there for a little bit? maybe you need to separate yourself from the situation for a while (if possible). hang in there!!!!!!

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written by Kathleen Sera, October 06, 2008

Brother is in the dorms at the University, which is nearby but I can't stay there. Parents are too far away from civilization so I can't get around the next time I'm called into work, which is on the 20th, or to rehearsal, which is tonight. I don't have a lot of good friends that I would feel right staying with and I can't afford to pay anything. The couple of friends I do have have a full house and a baby, so no room.

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written by Kelia, October 06, 2008

I'm praying for you. Things will get better, things have to get better. Tell yourself that. *hugs*

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written by Jbug, October 06, 2008

Sounds like he already had that someone else in mind, if not already seeing her before your breakup. I know how heartbreaking this can be. I think living with a boyfriend while still in school is a mistake. Guys are just not mature enough to know what a relationship is all about. You will be stronger for this in the future. Don't ever move in with a guy till you are out on your own and can make your own way in life. If things don't work out, YOU will not ever have to worry and YOU will have the power. Reality at this time is that you may have to change your life, take a step backwards, get on your feet and start all over again. See if you can get enough money to finish your show and then you either have to move back home, or see if you can find a new roommate (a female around your age) who can help with rent. The most important thing is school. You need to get a college degree. If you have to go to work and go to a Jr. College at night, that may be what you have to do right now. Never depend on a boyfriend ever again. Be independent. Theatre may have to be put aside for a time to do this, but you can't live life dependent upon others. A knight in shining armour will never come to the rescue. The more dependent you are on a guy, the less respect they have for you. So, figure out about a roommate situation with a girl, your job, school and then you need to figure out transportation. After rent is solved, save for a car or bike. The more you sit around depressed over this boy, the worse things will get. Go out and meet people. Be strong and independent. You can do this!

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written by Kathleen Sera, October 07, 2008

I've been out of post-secondary for a while now (lived with roommates while I was in college). I have a degree and work in the wardrobe at an Equity house, but it's seasonal and being at the bottom rung, am more on call and not full time. I didn't work all summer because of this, and the season just started. I was in for a week plus a couple days and won't be back in until the 20th for another week, and then a couple weeks in November after that.
I don't have a driver's license at the moment, and the earliest I can get one is June (just got my learner's and I need to have it for at least a full year before taking my test).
I suffer from clinical depression and being in shows is what keeps me sane. I didn't have time to be in shows while I was in school, and was working on them instead as part of my class work, watching other people live my dreams. I was a wreck the whole time. I can't let myself get to that point again.

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written by Jbug, October 07, 2008

You have to keep working to keep your mind off of your situation. The more you do to help yourself at this time the better. So what - you don't have a drivers license. You don't have a car, so find out more info on how to get public transportation. Also, a bicycle is good exercise which helps a little in the depression dept. You need to find more dependable work. Get a different job that will allow you to act in shows at night. But make sure you can make a living on your own. Getting stable is something you need, expecially now. How can you be focused on an acting career if you have to worry about where your next meal is coming from, or going into clinical depression!!! You will heal faster when the practical side of your life is fixed. If working on shows makes you depressed if you can't be in them, then I would say that a job like that is not a good fit for you. At least not now. 1st get well and fix your life. Then start taking acting classes and work towards that goal. The last thing you need is some guy. Save money for a bike and a car. Never depend on others. This will help you to feel better about yourself. When you are more confident and independent, you will see that it will make you more appealing to directors and casting directors too. Something inside you will shine through. You will also be able to make more friends. Nothing is a guarentee in life. You will have other setbacks, but you will know that you know that you know that YOU will be able to overcome it. Don't be afraid to ask for a little help from "Above". You'll be surprised how that sometimes helps to comfort you. Many folks have been through worse than this and came out stronger at the other end. Time is on your side. Just because it doesn't happen in a week, doesn't mean things won't be better a year from now.

Take a regular job, get a female roomie, save for transportation, stay on schedule to get your drivers license, take classes, start auditioning for shows again. I also recommend that you read a new book by Suzanne Somers called "Breakthrough - Eight Steps to Wellness". Suzanne is a very intelligent woman. I've read 2 other of her past books on the same subject. Sometimes Clinical Depression is caused by something hormonal going on in your body. just something to check out - might help. Taking steps is the way to power in your life. Start with baby steps and keep walking! You have to or die! What do you want to do? Don't let your dreams die, find a new path to make them come true.