Eddie_Dean
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My "first time" - 2008/03/07 23:11
Hi Everyone,
I haven't introduced myself in the proper channels yet, mostly because there's not much to say. I did some tiny roles in middle and high school, but mostly sat on the sidelines as a member of the pit orchestra. I always dreamed of being one of the lead roles, living the experience with everyone else and knowing what it was like to really follow that dream.
Somehow, last summer I found the courage to give it a shot. I ended up being cast as Beth in "Little Women: The Musical" and spent the next 6 months living in the theater. Every night, I'd get up on that giant stage and completely lose myself as I turned into a different person. Sometimes just the thought of being up there, making those absolutely magical moments come alive, would get me through my day job. When rehearsal would end in the evening, I would hug my newfound friends and ache for more.
I remember being 10 years old and seeing "Les Mis" on stage for the first time. As Eponine's beautiful belting voice resonated through the theater, the audience sat frozen in a moment of perfect suspension, bound together by what we'd just shared. I remember longing with all my heart to be the one orchestrating that moment with my own voice. Two months ago, as our voices soared over the audience in "Some Things are Meant to Be," I finally knew what that moment must've felt like for that actress. Who cares that it was just a community theater with 300 people in the audience? They were crying for me and with me. I was the one who got to create that moment. Would it be horribly nerdy for me to say that it was the most amazing moment of my life?
I mourned the show being over. Each and every night slipped through my fingers and my memory as the words echoed through the theater. When it was over, we all cried a lot. I felt like a part of me had died.
Since then, I was cast in the lead role for an unknown play (non-musical) through the same group. When I decided to audition, my husband shook his head, smiled, and kissed me on the forehead as he watched me walk back into my other life, knowing he wouldn't see me for weeks and weeks but knowing that I was off doing what my heart really longed to do.
I cherish each and every moment of these experiences. Being in theater is such a rush, and I just can't believe that the tiny void I always felt inside of me has finally been filled. None of my family or other friends are "theater people," so they just smile and listen to me gush about how I love it. But YOU, you all truly know what I mean. Best wishes as you live your dreams, and enjoy every second you have with your "theater family!"
Currently: Kissin' Kate Barlow in "Holes"
Previous Roles: Nettie MacCleary in "Orphan Train," Beth in "Little Women: The Broadway Musical" |
and i am always so sad when rehearsals are over and i have to wait another week till practice!!! You explained it perfectly!!!